From my heart.

I never thought I had anything worth another person being jealous over, until someone told me they were a little jealous over the fact that I got pregnant. It took me by surprise(I wasn't angry). Someone was jealous of me? Then I realized, that I have been able to experience a miracle that some women may never get to experience, or will have to go down a painful road to eperience. I get to feel my child grow inside of me. I actually get to have a baby. I read all kinds of blogs on here, and i've been reading blogs about women who are using medical treatments to try and conceive. My heart goes out to them. These women are stronger then i'll ever be. Through their blogs i've witness their strenght and courage. I honestly never thought i'd get to be a mom. The truth is I conviced myself I didn't deserve it. But these women know what they want. They know that being a mother was what they were made for. How could they not be gifted with a child of their own? It just doesn't seem right. My heart goes out to them, and my wish for every woman who is going through this is : That they be blessed, the way that I am blessed. That one day they will get to hear their child call them mommy(however it happens, adoption, fertility drugs). That they continue to be strong and not give up, because every woman deserves to be a mother one day.

10 more days!!

Yes, 10 more days, until my due date! I soo wish Raziel would feel like making his entrance into this world early. I look into his nursery/room and I want to cry. Mostly because i'm soo happy he'll be here soon, and a little part of me is sad because I can't hold him yet. I feel him kick, and when I lay on one side for a long time I can feel his little body as well. It's the most amazing feeling, and I can't even begin to imagine what he's going to look like when he comes out. All I feel is love and happiness in these moments. It's amazing that mine and Vash's love for one another made this little person. A perfect representation of our love for one another. My son, my angel, my new reason for being, and my little monster who kicks me like crazy. I have never known a love like this, and I am so happy that I get to experience it. Thank You Raziel for giving my life new meaning :O)

Sad evening discovery.

Yesterday after work, my co-worker and I, saw a pregnant women sitting on the floor with a sign that read, 'homeless, need $, food, or any baby things.' This bothered me so much and made me very sad. I realized( again) how fortunate and truely blessed I am. I have a home, food, and a great familythat would never allow me to end up in that kind of situation. I also felt sad for her unborn child, because I thought what kind of life is the child going to be brought up into? My son will have a nice warm home to come home to, and this child doesn't even have anything; but the protection of his or her's mother's womb for now. It was very disturbing and made my heart so heavy. So my prayers go out to that woman, and hopefully you all will pray for her as well. Pray that her child will be taken care of and loved.

3 weeks to go!!

Yup, three more weeks until my due date, and I have to say I want this baby out of me!! LOL i'm so tied al ofl the time, and for the first time in my life I have CANKLESS!! It's been a little weird these past two weeks, because Vash has another part-time job during the day now, and he's not home to cook me dinner :OP I also just miss having home when i'm home. It's weird the little things you get use to. So, I decided to go back to work part-time, because in all honesty I am a workaholic; and i don't think i'd be able to stay home all day, every day. This gives me a chance to get out for aa few hours, and still feel like i'm contributing something to our household.

We should be moving to our new apartment this weekend! Yay us!! So, while other people are enjoying their long weekend away, we'll be panting the babies new room, putting together the rocking chair, and settling into "hopefully" our last apartment, for awhile anyway. This is also my last week at work( going on maternity leave). I guess I should try to stick it out closer to my due date, but when your job requires you to stand all day, it is just to difficult. Well, just a little update :O) until next time.