Razi picture time!!

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Wordless Wednesday.

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Me and my best friend, Raziel.

My best friend in the whole entire world is....... My son Raziel. We're together almost 24/7. He makes me laugh, he makes me happy, and sometimes that boy can sure make me angry. He's always there to give me a kiss and hug. He never judges me. He is an amazing little human being. He's all the goodness in the world wrapped up in a spicey , strong minded package. He is my every reason for being and the reason I don't get very much sleep(lol) He's the most amazing b.f.f a mom can have!

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We're venturing into toddler~land!

I always thought of a toddler as a two to like five year old, but i'm quickly seeing(with Raziel) that toddler~hood can come much earlier, and it's freaking me out. Raziel is entering the terrible two's and he's only going to be one! He has temper tantrums and he is soo strong willed (some say he got it from his mama :0). When he doesn't like something he goes around saying nah, nah, nah (no, no, no). Even says stop! It's just too much( smirking as I write this). When he gets upset he tries to hit you and pull your hair( that's at his worse). I just can't believe the baby phase is over so quickly. :0( Now, the upside is..... He says mama whenever he wants me and wants to be taken out of the playpen. It's the little things that makes this transition so sweet.

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Because being a mother is what I want to be.

I don't know if its because i'm almost thirty(next year yikes!), or because the day I spent with Raziel at the park was one of the best days i've had in a while; but I have made a decision with my life that is going to lead me down a completely different road. I have tried to go down this road before, but the truth is I wasn't ready. Now, having Raziel, I know i'm ready to make significant changes in my life.
I don't want to miss out on my little man growing up. I want to go to football games, I want him to have sleep overs, and I want to go to ice cream socials damn it!( my cousins daughters went to one, and I thought, that sounds awesome!!!!!) I want more children, and the truth is I can't do all of those things here in nyc.
I'm just really ready for the next step. The next phase. I just want to be a mom, and I don't think there is anything wrong with that.

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